What is wrong ? Time to learn to let go? Time to learn about impermenance? Time to learn about non-attachment?

Perhaps...

In the midst of chasing deadlines, I took a break and read some of the entries on this blog. Another year has gone by. The first entry of this blog was Tiesto (Mac 2006), ha! I miss those trance/ electronic maestro's mix. Haven't been reading Zouk's website about who's coming to town for ages. I guess they don't matter to me anymore.

Lately have been very indolent. Just want to take a breather from everything. Have not been the sharp-witted, humourous and sometimes sarcastic me... but rather a quiet, lazy me. Sometimes you see yourself changing, and you are not sure what's the change, but weird, because you are supposed to be incharged of that change, because the subject that is changing is you!!!!

Chinese New Year is coming, but I don't feel festive at all. Perhaps in Malaysia, one ALWAYS feel festive with all the nice public holidays and the shopping malls with sales all the time. And with the many wedding and birthday dinners that I attend recently, Chinese New Year can't beat the food and the 'banquet' feel, no matter how festive it can be.

It is strange, I am going to embark on a journey home... A home that my last visit was last Chinese New Year. Where is HOME?!

I am happy that I will meet my parents again, and am sure they somehow will miss this "brat" who's out in the city to try to make a living... I get to meet Grandma again. I miss Grandpa who passed away last year.

Then there will be reunion dinners with friends whom you don't even contact anymore but once a year, meet at a reunion BBQ kindly hosted by one of your "FRIENDS" whom you don't even know already got married/ had kids/ had another kid etc

May be I am growing old and getting tired ... or may be it's just pure laziness manifesting ... May be it's just lack of sleep...